avert the average

here's to friends. theyre awesome and i love em more than they know. it's never been more comforting to have friends that matter. at a time of self-questioning, i turn to the people i trust the most and it's the best feeling to know that im not the only one whose lost. when you dont know what youre doing and youre alone, then youre lost, but when you dont know what youre doing and your homie next to you doesnt know squat either, then its an adventure and its certainly a challenge to look forward to.

follow your dreams, they say. but how scary is it to think that dreaming is not enough, when your rationale starts to kick in and say that youre dreams arent good enough, or that you will fail before or after you get there? it sucks to think that by the cruelty of the world, we have dulled ourselves into thinking that the things we want most are out of reach. and such, we have replaced those dreams with the need to have a backup plan, a proven algorithm of attack that yields the median of results. i am terrified of being average. my greatest fear is that even by doing everything im "supposed" to do, and doing it well for that matter, i wont get where i want to go, or be who i want to be.

it's something i cant avoid, i cant sleep it away and hope that my dreams will come true overnight. failure is the answer, and it's the only answer. only by failing, will i truly acheive what i want most. but what do i want most??? oh how i wish i knew!

i want mobility. i want the power to change as much or as little as i want, whenever i want. is money the answer? in some ways yes, but in many ways not. money allows us to maneuver around the material social structure that exists all around us, to correct and cover up mistakes. what loopholes are left can be filled with strenght of mind. you can have hella money, but no cause or direction, no purpose. and so it seems that a person with purpose is free. freedom of self-determination is basic to humanity, and i think it's far too easily lost sight of, and far underestimated as the foundation of a healthy, functional society. with strenght of mind comes responsibility, to yourself and your fellow man. if not for yourself, do something for your neighbor, and for the people you care most about. is there any more worthy cause?