misty million mermaid month

what a month, april.

from a seasoned discovery channel viewer and huge planet earth fan, comes a strong recommendation for the newly released disney earth feature film. the only thing better than awesome hd nature footage is watching on a huge screen. and thank you for the narration, darth vader. also, the theatre del mar is a sweet venue, super old school yo.

april has also been the month of twitter. lovin it. ill say that i got the first push in my ecommerce class cuz thats where we get class updates. but after a facebook case study and discussion about how people run their lives on this social network and just how zuckerberg piloting facebook in a new direction, im over it. ha, i say that but i still keep updated. i mean, facebook IS good for something, but i dont wanna be hooked. instead, i want to be on the break of the new wave. twitter is sweet. i follow rob dyrdek and drama, theyre hilarious! im hooked. its more personal, and i like the idea of getting newsfeed-like updates only from the people i want them from. celebs are fun too follow too. tweet.

ecommerce, what a cool class. speaking of the new wave tho, google, gmail, chrome, and google talk. i am googled out! homies, please join me on googletalk. streamlinin! twitter too. woohoo.

steph and i painted pottery a few weeks ago at petroglyph which was way cool. so therapeutic, just sitting, being able to take time to create. i miss that. so simple, the craft is in the details. the pieces turned out awesomely too. we traded, so i finally have a dedicated coffee mug. thank you! mine mine mine. speaking of coffee, ive got java love. been trying some of the different beans offered at new leaf, brewing my own strong stuff at home in the mornings. and it smells so good! when i cant or dont have time, ive been getting my bevs from the perk shops on campus. note: try mixing the sumatra and french roast, 80/20 ratio. wow. in a combined effort to cut costs and keep it personal with the environment in mind, ive also begun bringin my own thermocup to school. slugstore cup with some jazzy local stickers. i read recently that if i keep it under three cups a day, its actually pretty good for me too. minus the sugar, but im working on that too.

a month of birthdays. shout outs to the april babies. lots of semi-surprise dinner and birthday desserts. funny pictures to store the mems. everybodys gotta hit the gym now with all that cake in the belly. me, i need to up the greens again. feelin slow, feelin clogged up in there. it might be the burritos, honestly. la cabana holds it down so hard. westside! good thing ive found someone thatll crave it as hard i as i do. yes thats you. afternoon horchata, so refreshing.

things on the mind: basketball, summer internship field study, housing, combined major, moped, grand theft auto, dinner. gasp! chuck and heroes and fantasty factory season finales were this week. all awesome. my favorite shows, of course they know exactly how to bring me back next season! stay thirsty my friends.

pictureless pauciloquence

currently:

i.  i am burritoed out, man! i maybe had taqueria la cabana like four times this week.

ii.  got too many things to keep updated, twitter me

iii.  looking for casual employment

iv.  would like to be at the beach before it rains

v.  practicing my roman numerals

vi.  running out of lappy power

vii.  constantly craving mi goreng

viii.  eating habitually

ix.  would like to start reading econ

x.  laughing at the riles!

xi.  listening to aesop rock

xii.  thoroughly enjoying spring afternoons

avert the average

here's to friends. theyre awesome and i love em more than they know. it's never been more comforting to have friends that matter. at a time of self-questioning, i turn to the people i trust the most and it's the best feeling to know that im not the only one whose lost. when you dont know what youre doing and youre alone, then youre lost, but when you dont know what youre doing and your homie next to you doesnt know squat either, then its an adventure and its certainly a challenge to look forward to.

follow your dreams, they say. but how scary is it to think that dreaming is not enough, when your rationale starts to kick in and say that youre dreams arent good enough, or that you will fail before or after you get there? it sucks to think that by the cruelty of the world, we have dulled ourselves into thinking that the things we want most are out of reach. and such, we have replaced those dreams with the need to have a backup plan, a proven algorithm of attack that yields the median of results. i am terrified of being average. my greatest fear is that even by doing everything im "supposed" to do, and doing it well for that matter, i wont get where i want to go, or be who i want to be.

it's something i cant avoid, i cant sleep it away and hope that my dreams will come true overnight. failure is the answer, and it's the only answer. only by failing, will i truly acheive what i want most. but what do i want most??? oh how i wish i knew!

i want mobility. i want the power to change as much or as little as i want, whenever i want. is money the answer? in some ways yes, but in many ways not. money allows us to maneuver around the material social structure that exists all around us, to correct and cover up mistakes. what loopholes are left can be filled with strenght of mind. you can have hella money, but no cause or direction, no purpose. and so it seems that a person with purpose is free. freedom of self-determination is basic to humanity, and i think it's far too easily lost sight of, and far underestimated as the foundation of a healthy, functional society. with strenght of mind comes responsibility, to yourself and your fellow man. if not for yourself, do something for your neighbor, and for the people you care most about. is there any more worthy cause?

salubrious sanative sapientials

(words i stole from the internet that may make sense, but are more likely to not)

i love college, and i love spring break! sitting on bart right now heading back to the great city of san francisco, and i figured what better a time for reflection-- on a finished and amazing winter quarter, on what's changed and what hasnt, on life as it is and the future as i hope it will soon be.

first things first, miss my girl already! ha! a week, we can do it. i stick to it that sleep is for wimps. i mean, there are so many things to do out there that it really doesnt make sense to sleep any more than we need to. it's nice, and it's often refreshing, but a life of slumber is a life of missed opportunity. this quarter's been wild. been trying new things and some things have worked and are still working fantastically, while others have quietly passed to the background. finals were finals, intense, stressful, you know. i really hope i passed my astronomy class. of all classes to fail, i pray that this is not the first. programming was chill, easy breezy. i feel really good about accounting, and fairly good about econometrics. closing out my quarter internship with the student volunteer center taught me a lot about purpose, having strong and worthy reasons to do things. volunteering isnt about the rewards, it isnt about giving back to the community. volunteering is about having purpose at an individual level, and how that personal reason, that internal force allows you to do more than you could have imagined. do things because YOU want to do them, do whatever YOU enjoy, and live with yourself. with the ability to say f*ckit comes the strength really give a f*ck.

life as it is, amazing. it's crazy how much different i felt going into my last final, it was overcast and bitter, and coming out of my final, sunny and freeeee. my mood swings with the weather and i love it. i was terribly stressed for a second leading up to finals. on the 20 up to campus on wednesday, youd see half kids moping around obviously heading to a test, and half the kids glowing from an afternoon at the beach. it sucked. four finals and what beautiful weather! grind through it. walking outta baskin at 2oclock on friday was insane, nearly a peak experience as ralph would say. called the girl, hopped on the fixed, bought flowers and a sandwich. there's no better way to do it. i love college.

im twenty now, its scary. for one thing, its a pretty freakin big number considering that at ten, i barely new what a fraction was. yes, i measure my growth by how much math i can do, eat it. high school is almost long gone, just because i think so much differently now than i did then. priorities change, things that mattered so much before mean so little now and vice versa. to think, i have to do taxes soon, and get a job, and look for a place to live next year! the thing is, im scared of it, but so not at the same time. now is the time, so there's no better time than now to figure it out. im growing, im learning, and it's fun! having shit to do is now comforting, because the scary thing now is not knowing what to do. there is no right way to live, but the prospect of not doing it right is terrifying. i just want to stay on schedule, learn in time, and not look back with regret. please!

anyway, im sure ill be back blogging at least this week. homies, stay chill and have an awesome spring break. if i dont see you, at least know that im wishing you the best. cheers.

serious snog snoozin

at last, i have momentarily awakened from my weekend of slumber. good morning blog, it's been a little while. correction, it's been a quite a while, approaching hella days. my bad, but youll have to blame it on the awesome girlfriend to take me away from my blogging responsibilities. upgrade. youve been one-upped my friend, but it's not you, i swear.

since the tenth, holey bagel! road tripped to tahoe for birthday, valentines day weekend! super pow, like you dont even know. although there were fat storms on the way up and on the way back down, we managed to crank out an awesome vday sesh. it was sunny too, like what?! our deluxe accomodations included an oversized flat screen for the room, and an under-sized, yet infinitely more luxurious mini flat screen for the bathroom. all i can really say is what a trip. thank you stepha, my favorite. and shout out to kwan and weenie, we did it so right!

while it was awesome to bust outta santa cruz for a second, the cost of an escape weekend before midterms definitely came around. after 11 hours up, and like 9 hours to travel back to santa cruz, (and of course musical a.d.d. fluctuating between the likes of kelly clarkson, akon, the jobros, lil wayne, the fray, and the game,) i found myself largely dysfunctional until wednesday. at which point, I was met with an accounting midterm thursday and the associated wednesday night/thursday morning, caffeine enhanced cram preparation. accounting can eat it. an exam from left field killed my spirits, but didnt slow down the programming midterm which went down on friday morning. a word of advice, the way to recover from a week like that is not to do it big on friday/saturday to celebrate your accomplishments. common folklore suggests that sleep is indeed for wimps, yet common sense will always creep up on you, unless you are really a vampire.

it's really been non-stop lately. sunday recovery soon became monday freak out. essays due, homework to copy. warrior games, spontaneous birthdays, and buddies should really each have their own days of the week. at some point, i also broke my ipod. the headphone jack is tweaked, so it only outputs to one speaker. disaster! been nearly musicless on campus, which is my primary rockout time, and it's been a little of an adjustment. for the better, i like to think. forces me to engage in random conversation, which is always fun. study, study. econometrics required its own little freak out, but it soon got its needed attention. the quarter is FLYING by.

been working as an intern for the student volunteer center this quarter with the riles. this week we had a bunch of fundraisers and events. pizza on monday, parish on tuesday, jamba juice thursday, and invasive plant removal on saturday. yayuh. saturday was super chill, my favorite svc experience so far. we headed out to the great meadow on campus to clear off the french broom from the coastal plain landscape. they fed me juice and snacks, gave me a cool tool, and we got to work. i yanked out some hella big plants, paul bunyan-ed it and impressed myself. got tired and was like aite, whatever, im out. peaced back to the girl's place and entered hibernation. finally! a chance to sleep. and sleep. and sleep. so nice.

two weeks on, two weeks off. im straight chillin until finals i think, as far as regular classes go. not too much to freak out about, probably just a little reading and some grunt work at most. snagged a couple classes for spring quarter. econ as experimental science, and econ of ecommerce, plus stats to add soon. i do, i really do need to get on my intership, study abroad, field study, declaration dealio. gasp. it sounds scarier and scarier the more i put it off. this week, though-- tomorrow! i shall begin. until then, i shall bask in lethargy and continue to think aboutsya.

funny, so i emailed TRUE today because i really need to know if they have any more of my hat. its just been painful! i still havent removed the pin on which it used to hang, so theres literally a void in my hat wall. there are just so many days where that would be the perfect hat to wear, and it look up to grab it and its not there! grumble grumble.

also, i am still addicted to blockles. its serious. i participate in blockles parties where my opponents are sprawled out across the same room as me. in fact, i had to stop writing this blog post just to play because i saw the word blockles and started feinin for it. then, i just played the longest match ever, the blocks moved so fast! that's all. im donezo. callin you. stay amazing.

martian mash

so the other day i was riding around downtown and i saw this one fool going the opposite direction and he was straight killin it. peeped his ride and i was like, no. way. NO WAY. yep that's it, the one and only ciocc enemy pursuit owned by the boss dawg himself, garrett of the (in)famous mashsf crew. he looked at me like i was dirt... and it was awesome!!! just rockin t-shirt, shorts, and ipod, what a badass! i still cant get over it. look at this beassst:



anyway. that was that. crazy week so far. shout out to m'girl! has it only been three days? the snow, thats wassup. the other day i got super duper wired. who peeped my facebook status? just a lethal combination of near-jared-level sleepage and the super strength monday morning coffee dosage. insane. i listened to DJ AM and Travis Barker's "Fix Your Face Mixtape", then Girl Talk's "Night Ripper." both albums were off the hook, and they helped me burn through a chapter of accounting in the library which i really needed to do. yesterday though, i snagged Kid Cudi's mixtape. love it! embrace the martian is my favorite track. do listen. plus i just got off weezy' phone home, and the game's my life. space is in, get on that hype!

yep hella gtb, eyeballs hurt (s)lightweight, abousta kick rocks. fisho. gasp. people like me are the reason why urbandictionary must exist.

except wait, i forgot to mention that rob dyrdek's fantasy factory is by far, the best thing on tv. nitro circus got stomped, but we'll see if demetri martin can hang tonight at 1030p. be there! doin it SO right.

favorite fitted flies forever

talk about a bummer day. i lost my favorite hat. it was just last night when i admired you, perched high on the wall, beaming above dynamic light. i said the words aloud, "that's my favorite hat," not knowing that it would be the last time i would ever say it. you fit so well, and were so steezy, it was my pleasure to rock it. TRUE hat, we've had an amazing year-- parties and kickits, hot and cold, ridin dirty, we did it so right. this afternoon at 3:16pm at High and Bay, i paid the price to pedal. as i pushed through the intersection, overtaking a biking girl and a metro bus, TRUE hat flew from my head and disappeared into the next dimension. i rounded back to rescue, but found no trace. legend has it that TRUE hat was absorbed by the blackhole of awesomeness to a faraway place for hella cool shit. bummer.

TRUE hat, i mees you.